Last week I started work, and poor little Emmie had her life turned upside down. I know people say she doesn't really understand what's going on, but I think her pacifier would beg to differ. Starting last monday, the paci got promoted to full blown "baby crack" status.
In addition to the new pacifier obsession, she stopped napping for a couple of days. Apparently, she had gotten used to falling asleep while breastfeeding, and the bottle just wasn't quite as soothing.
Did I mention it's a bad idea to schedule your baby's first shots in the middle of your first week back at work? Watching them get the shot is not the hard part, apparently. Holding them for the day and a half that follows while they cry inconsolably is the hard part. It was all I could to not to run out of work early Wednesday and Thursday.
Also, for the first 8 weeks of her life, Emmie had Josh and me both home with her all the time. She must have gotten really used to it, because now her favorite thing to do is sit there and stare at us while we both give her 100% of our attention. She will sit there and watch us watching her and go back and forth from Josh's face to mine. It's very sweet and funny in a pitiful way. She gets so happy and relaxed when we're both paying attention to her.
Did I mention that Emmie is too big for her bassinett? The problem is we still don't have her crib, so she sleeps in bed with us, which she loves because she gets to spend all night cuddled up next to me. Part of me loves it too, because I like to snuggle with her, and (call me twisted) because knowing that she needs me to fall asleep makes me feel needed and special, but the other part of me knows that I am not getting enough sleep because she's sleeping with me.
And yes, I know I should not be looking for ways to feel needed, that there will be plenty of opportunities so I shouldn't be inviting more of them in, but those Mommy emotions can be funny things sometimes. Sometimes, I even think that I'll be sad when she is potty trained.
Sorry that turned out to be such a dry news brief, but I'm tired and short on time these days, and that's not very good for my writing style I'm afraid.
2 comments:
All in all you are handling it very well. You are stressed, tired, and not where you want to be, but every morning you get up and go to work, come home and play with the baby...I'd say you are showing great resilience. I love you!
It's tough to be a new mommy and daddy too! The good news is that you two are wonderful parents. Look how much you've learned already.
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